dindia (dindia) wrote,

We don't need no meditation... or do we?

Welp. I failed it. Couldn't bear it. I gave it a try, 4 days. Meditating for like 12 hours a day. Been trying to concentrate on my breath, nose, nostrils, the itchcing and scratching af the area. That was bigger than me.
It was quite disappointing. Because this thing should work, many people tried this, and that girl that i came with was totally transformed by it. But on the other hand maybe i don't really need this? Maybe this kind of meditation us not the right one for me? I dunno. Yesterday when I finally decided that's it, I "meditated" with music. (which was of corse forbidden- you're not supposed to talk, read, write, listen to music. Only meditating and you can only speak with the teacher). Well it felt good, much better than the whole days of meditating. I felt alive.
The funny thing is that i could even say that girl that i'm leaving. Remember - she can't talk. So i just left a note.
And now I looked vipassana webpage again. Hmm.. Maybe I'm missing something here? It sounds so good. Maybe too good? But yet on so many people it did work.. Ehm. Anyway I'm looking forward to meditate with Pink Floyd's Dark Side Of The Moon, and then have yoga lessons and then maybe Osho meditation.

I had plenty of time to think though. And guess what. I'm happy (usually), I'm healthy, have great friends, food to eat (it's not so obvious in India), and I'm in India- My biggest dream came true!

So as one sweet canadian girl said:
I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine

So now I'm back to Calcutta, met old friends, and met some more. Almost back home.

P.S. If anyone of you had experience with Vipassana meditation please e-mail or leave comment. All others, don't forget you're always welcomed to comment, ask question , encourage, tell jokes in comments. Thanks

One of the pictures I took in Calcutta. The girl was just sleeping on the sidewalk. Totally peaceful.
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